Thursday, June 30, 2011

Thursday (8w2d)

Well, folks - I got what I deserved for yesterday's optimism. In other words......

Yesterday was YUCK. Mega-yuck.

As in, "Kids, I'll be in the bedroom. Don't come get me unless someone is dead or dying, and even then I'm not sure there's anything I can do about it."

I am SO praying for a better day today. Prayer appreciated!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Wednesday (8w1d)

Just a quick check-in, since I checked in last night.

The past 24 hours has been really good, by comparison! I'm hoping that this is a trend, and not just an anomaly. If I notice that the vitamin shots have a good but temporary effect, I'll ask them if they can up it to twice a week (it's not that expensive). For now, I'll have to see.

By the way, when this is over, I am planning doing a LOT of eating. Mostly carbs. Starting with a bean and rice burrito. I'll have to be careful not to go overboard. But being limited to 3-5 protein choices for the past couple of weeks has made me realize (again, for the 3rd time) how much I love to cook (and eat) and I'm anxious to get back to it.

I've been wondering in all honesty when it would be safe to start adding back carbs. Not now, of course. Maybe the end of the 1st trimester? Or should I wait till I'm completely feeling better? That could be months and months away, though..... I'll probably just reevaluate at the 13 week mark and see. I definitely don't want to make myself sick, because (1) it stinks, and (2) it takes a long time to work out of.

By the by, keep an eye at Becky over at Refuse to be a Womb Pod.... looks like she may be entering active duty as well, which would make something like a total of four HG blogs active at the same time (though I'll be praying that her pregnancy is and stays a non-HG one).

Okay, all! Till tomorrow! Thank you for your prayers - please keep them coming! :)

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Tuesday (8w0d)

Hi, everyone!


Very excited to be here, and to be here while non-HG. Very grateful. Next goal: Ten weeks.

This morning I headed back to the naturopathic college for repeat B/magnesium shot. Have had a reasonably good day! Not sure if that's coincidence or cause-and-effect.

This afternoon I went to an acupuncture appointment I'd made. Kind of weird. I fill out the intake forms, give them to her, and she comes back in a few minutes and says "Oh, I can't see you. Your insurance doesn't cover pregnancy nausea." There was no mention of seeing her for a cash payment, just a blanket "I can't see you, goodbye," so I just left. However, that's fine. They said this morning at the naturopathic college that they could do some acupuncture for me, so I'll probably just do it there.

Having a hard time finding things to eat. By the time I find something on the diet that I can stand and prepare myself, I usually can only eat it for about 36 hours before I start to find it nauseating. I'm quickly running out of options. However, I do want to stick on the diet since it seems to be helping stabilize me. And, of course, I am grateful to be EATING. At all. With my first, eating went out the window for a good 10+ weeks. So counting my blessings.

I find it absolutely amazing how fast multips POP when they pop! Oh, my goodness! Over the past 48 hours, I went from "Hmm, I think I might be showing," to "Good gosh almighty, I must be birthing a walrus!" Wow! Not like the three months of first-time-baby "I think that might be a bump! Honey, look, do you think that's a bump?" Yowzers!

If my writing is confusing and disjointed, that is because I am confused and disjointed. Look for improvements in coming months.

Later, all! Continued prayer appreciated!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Save the Midwife

Please visit the link below to learn all about the situation and challenges facing one of Arizona's awesome midwives.... there are ways that we can help and show support!

Save the Midwife

Also, hop on over to Facebook and check out the new group Make VBAC Legal!, which is dedicated to beginning the journey toward legally-CPM-attended home VBAC in the state of Arizona. Good things afoot there!

Monday (7w6d)

Well, yesterday was yuck. That's about all there is to say. Praying for a better day today. Grateful not to be in HG.

On a brighter note, I think I'm definitely starting to show. Consolation prize! Of course right now it just looks like extra pudge, but it's something.

Please continue to keep me in prayer!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Sunday (7w5d)

Seriously, has anyone else around here noticed that time is almost at a stand-still? This week is at the approaching-eternity mark!

Yesterday DH took the kids grocery shopping while a sweet friend of ours came over and did some housecleaning for us (thank you again!!). I got to rest continuously for several hours, which was just wonderful. So that was really nice. Of course the downside is that I am just as exhausted when I get up as I was beforehand, but I'll take it anyway!

Still stable, still okay, not in HG. I'll take that!

Baby's guess-date is sometime in early February. However, I have told her firmly that she is only to show up on Feb. 1st or Feb. 10-19th. Why? Because those dates are (if you get rid of excess zeroes) palindromes, and I would love it if all three of our babies could have palindrome birthdays! So.... the chances aren't that great, but that's my goal.

You know, NVP puts a lot of stress on one's family. Ever noticed that? (Heads nodding, yes.) There's a big financial strain, from added food bills and other expenses. But there's also the family/marital strain, which is always present and which - I think - gets bigger the more kidlets one has. Most of this is simply because one's husband has to take over just about everything that one usually does, which results in mega-stress. Poor guys. I'll be glad when I can jump back in and give DH more of a hand with family life.

I've also noticed that with each pregnancy, my stamina and energy are less. I've been pregnant at 25, 28 and now 30, and I find drastic reductions in my endurance and energy levels with each baby. I used to think it was silly to list "advanced maternal age" as a pregnancy risk factor, but now I'm not so sure. I am tired!!

Okay, better get back to life, I guess. I'd like to go back to bed..... might just do that, since DH and DS are gone. I covet your continued prayers, dear friends!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Saturday (7w4d)

Well, I'd update on yesterday, but I can't remember it. Hmm hmm hmm. That's what happens when I try to blog during arsenic hour, that lovely time after 3 p.m. when however I am feeling becomes worse! LOL! (That phrase was coined by a friend of mine regarding how babies get cranky in the late afternoon, but I find it particularly fitting for this situation, considering how closely arsenical poisoning resembles HG! Or so I have been told.)

Anyway, I think yesterday was decent, all things considered. Again, another day at home hibernating and watching the clock while waiting for the first trimester to pass. I am praying that I will feel better soon and be able to enjoy more of this pregnancy.

But again, so thankful not to be in HG. Very thankful. Did I mention how thankful I am? Very!!! :)

Ah well, it's that magical time - time for more Zofran and Unisom! Thankfully I have my meds schedule memorized now, so I don't have to keep track of it any more on note pads. Off to do that and then mooch about until I can reasonably claim that it's bed time.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Friday (7w3d)

Howdy, all -

Yesterday was rough. So was last night. One more day down.

I am trying, though, to focus on gratitude. Because let's face it - right now is yucky, but as of the present it's the easiest time I've had. Not sure if it's the diet, the upped medication (I think I'm taking more Diclectin than I did last time), or a gender change for the baby, but this is the most functional I've ever been. And the yuckiness won't last forever. The present is not permanent. Praise the Lord for that.

My mom finds me completely puzzling. She only had one pregnancy, but it was one of those "glowing" pregnancies where she felt awesome almost the entire time. She told me that she had about two weeks when she felt slightly "off" in the mornings, and eating 2-3 crackers completely took care of it.

*Oozing with envy!*

So wherever I got this thing, it was from a lot further back in the gene pool.

My husband, on the other hand, does have severe morning sickness in his immediate family - his paternal grandmother was extremely sick during each of her three pregnancies, throwing up from the beginning all the way through the births (sometimes vomiting blood).


That we now have two genetic sources of severe NVP pouring into our offspring for their futures! Just lovely!

Hopefully they (or, in our sons' case, their daughters) won't pay the price.

There's a chance that my mom may be able to come back out in a week or two to stay for a little bit - I sure hope so.

Yesterday, after letting the kids sleep in as long as they would, I got them dressed and fed (which, even as badly as I did it, took over an hour) and then let our eldest watch TV while I recuperated from that. Then we sat on the couch and read for a while before naptime. And that was our day. I think we're going to have a lot of days like that.

So we're inching along.... at least week seven is halfway done now. Still waiting for my time machine!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Thursday (7w2d)


That about sums it up.

Okay, for details:

Yesterday I trekked over to the Southwest College of Naturopathic Medicine's clinic to go after those vitamin shots recommended in that one article (check my protol - the link is in there). It took a while - about two hours - but it was a good experience and I highly recommend the place. We're set up on a weekly basis for however long we need.

I must admit that I did freak out a little about the shot itself. I happen to be needle-phobic to the extreme, and as such, have made it the business of my life to avoid needles. Thus, I have made it through the past twenty-odd years with only two blood draws and no other injections at all. So I was a bit freaked out! But thankfully it was really minor and hardly hurt at all, so that was good. Not saying I won't freak out next week too, but I'll do my best.

Did it help? I have no idea. I think I did feel better than usual yesterday, but I was also completely shot, which may have been just because I was "on" and up and active for so long yesterday morning. Blech. Today I am going back to focusing on doing nothing.

Unfortunately, my parents left this morning (three full days earlier than we were originally expecting), so we are on our own. Double yuck!

So today is a bit of a downer..... And I am bummed that time just seems to be moving so incredibly slowly. The first trimester is a house guest which has my permission to leave at any time - the sooner the better - but which seems to be sticking around on an eternal basis. Time, move more quickly!

Later, all!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Wednesday (7w1d)

Guess I must have overdone it on Monday (i.e. "did more than nothing") because yesterday was yuck. I think I need to focus more on doing nothing. I don't know what on earth I'll do when my mom leaves on Friday.

Today is my appointment at the naturopathic medical college, so that should be interesting.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers!!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Tuesday, a.m. (7w0d)

Hurray for a milestone - SEVEN WEEKS!!!

Doing okay, though I had a rough night. One day at a time.

Right now I am just attempting to simplify everything I can. All dishes are disposable, all chores that are not mandatory (and some that are) are just not getting done. Period. I have canceled almost everything on our calendar, and I'm just trying to stay quiet and stay at home. I'm really well aware that over-exertion has a miserable pay-off, so I'm just staying home and trying to do as little as possible while praying for the first trimester to pass quickly.

Okay, off to get dressed.... Does anyone have a time machine I could borrow? 

Monday, June 20, 2011

Monday, a.m. (6w6d)

Almost done with week six! HURRAY!!

Doing okay. Shaky. Exhausted. But stable. I think the diet is really helping. I don't know how good it would be without Unisom/Zofran to support it, but I think that the meds plus the diet together are doing good things.

My parents are in town till Friday... then we're on our own again. Bummer!

By the way, I am absolutely convinced that this baby is a girl.... meaning that you can pretty much count on another boy, because my pregnancy predictions (for myself and others) are almost always dead wrong.

Speaking of pregnancy predictions, I wanted to mention my amazing friend Jen! She has sniffed out each of my four pregnancies with deadly accuracy before each was announced, and she's getting better with each. With this last one, she got it before we even suspected we were pregnant! Here are her dates of detection:

Baby 1 - 8 weeks
Baby 2 - around 4 weeks
Baby 3 - 3w6d
Baby 4 - 3w3d

Amazing, no?

I have my appointment at the naturopathic medical college on Wednesday. I've debated whether to keep it or not, but I think I will. It's already been put off twice - once by me (when I was feeling great) and once by them. This is for those B-complex and magnesium shots that are supposed to help HG. I think I'm doing okay without them.... but I know there's still a long road ahead, and if this could help, more power to it. Thoughts, anyone? It's going to be a bit pricey, but everything about my pregnancies is pricey. 

Okay, off to.... mooch around the house and stare at some walls. Our eldest is with the grandparents running errands, so I will probably just lay on the ground with the baby and.... stare at more walls.

Love to all!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Sunday, a.m. (6w5d)

Hi, guys!

Baby and I are on our own for a few hours while the family is at church.

So... how am I doing?

Well, it's a balancing act. I feel awful, but at the same time, I feel the best that I've ever felt at this point in a pregnancy. I don't know if that's coincidence, an indication that the diet works, or something else completely. However, I can say that it looks a lot like the diet is helping, especially as I took a nose-dive into some serious sickness relatively soon after I started cheating on the diet and adding carbs. I've been back on the diet strictly for almost a whole week now, and I'm definitely doing better than I was then. I haven't worked back up to that "I don't even feel pregnant" level of feeling-goodness, but I don't know if that's possible or not.

So, while feeling crummy, I am trying to focus on gratitude that I am where I am. I am doing okay. I am not in HG. I am so thankful for that. One day at a time. Trying to pray through the fear of "what might be around the corner". Just focusing on making it through the day.

I will be one thankful woman when this first trimester is past! Not that I feel better at that point, but I usually have stabilized and don't get any worse past that point.

Yesterday went fine. I was an absolutely rotten hostess - either back lying down in the bedroom, or sitting on the couch staring blearily at everyone - but I think everyone had fun, especially our son. I had forgotten how excited kids get over presents! :)

Okay, baby is calling my name! I would really appreciate your continued prayers for stability and feeling better, my friends!

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Saturday, a.m. (6w4d)

Yesterday was:
Shaky and woozy but the best day all week.

I think the diet helps. Let's hope it helps a lot!

Other conclusions:
Time has slowed down almost to a stand-still. Someone alert NASA!

My diet right now:
Cheese, eggs, almonds, celery with no-sugar peanut butter, and protein shakes. And the occasional lettuce-wrap hamburger from In-N-Out. Don't have the stomach to prepare meat.

Today's challenge:
Making it through visits from both sets of grandparents (we had to cancel our son's birthday party, but family is still coming to celebrate).

My goal:
Make it to the eight-week mark.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Friday, a.m. (6w3d)

Howdy, all!

Up and down.

Okay so far. Eating is becoming more and more of a challenge. And a nuisance.

Supplements I'm taking:
Zinc, Magnesium, multi, omega-3, ginger, Morning Sickness Comfort by Mommy's Bliss, B complex, a couple more

Meds I'm taking:
Zofran - 24 mg/day
Diclectin - 8 doses/day

Practical things I'm doing:
- Have had DH start dressing our eldest in his next-day clothes instead of PJ's - saves a step in the morning. Non-essential steps like bed-making and face-washing have been nixed for the present.
- Looking into short-term housecleaning help. Goodness, it's expensive!!

How I'm doing:
Ech. That's a combination of "ich" and "I don't know." Tired. Fearful. A bit woozy, as evidenced by the fact that I spelled "face" as "fash" in the last paragraph. And saw nothing wrong with that. Wishing I could just crawl in bed and stay there for the next two months.

Telling my parents about this baby:
Went just fine. :)

Question for everyone:
Is it okay to stack drugs? I'm thinking things like stematil, cyclizine (don't quote me on these spellings), Benadryl, Emetrol, Gravol, etc. Can I add them on top of what I'm taking?

Back to it! Appreciate prayers for stability!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Post-Ultrasound Check-in

Back from ultrasound.....


You'll never believe it.....

There's a baby in there.

No, seriously! I'm not joking - there really is. Fetal pole, yolk sac, heartbeat and all. Just where it all should be.

I am, to be honest, utterly shocked. Perhaps a bit shell-shocked. Wow!

I have confided in a couple of people, and others have probably guessed, that my guess was that this pregnancy was headed toward a miscarriage. This was for lots of reasons - a light pregnancy test, an absence of symptoms for 10 days, plus other symptoms that I haven't really mentioned here, like some spotting and two weeks of menstrual-type cramps.

But as of now, all systems are go. Hurray!

You will all be happy to know that we also..... have baby names picked out! Have for a couple of months. Don't count on anything, because we always change names - both of our other kidlets have not had official names till their week birthdays - but we might actually be ahead of the game this time. Unfortunately, one of our favorite names had to be nixed because it is almost identical to one of our other already-used names, but we're thinking of using it for a middle name.

And now.... to email my parents. Yikes!!!

I would appreciate your continued prayers - please!!!

Checking in, Thursday a.m. (6w2d)

Well, here we are, folks! Ultrasound day! Very excited. The last time I had an ultrasound, I didn't look at the screen the entire time (for fear I'd see the gender, which would have devastated me), and I was in fear that the tech would slip and mention baby's gender (she didn't). Today will be only a blip on a screen, so I can look all I want!


Morning - yuck
Afternoon/evening - not bad
Night - better than it's been in a while


Queasy but not horrible. Hoping to keep it that way!

Okay, off to start stuffing myself with protein to try to fight the nausea monster!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Checking in, Wednesday a.m. (6w1d)

Last night was:

Today I am feeling:

Looking forward to:
Tomorrow's ultrasound

Not looking forward to:
Announcing pregnancy news to family (a task for right after the ultrasound)

Lots of prayer, please!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Checking in, Tuesday p.m. (6w0d)

Hi, all! I know I've already checked in, but I'm blogging to distract myself for a few minutes.

I feel like dirt.(And not even good quality dirt, at that.)

Today was better than yesterday, but tonight has been yuck. I have basically sat around all evening, looking out blearily and trying not to throw up. DH has been pretty much on his own as far as food, childcare, etc.

Hoping that being back on the diet will help things to get better and not worse.

One of the hardest things about night has been having a co-sleeping baby. Not only does he wake me up, but he wants to nurse periodically though the night. This is totally fine, but when dealing with nighttime nausea, it makes it really hard. I don't want to wean him, and I know he's not ready to sleep on his own, but it sure makes it a lot harder.

Okay, all.... So, praying for a good night tonight and to feel better soon. Love to all!

Checking in, Tuesday a.m. (6w0d)

Okay, everyone! Just a quick update.

Yesterday was a fairly yucky day - nothing serious, but yucky. I adhered strictly to the VLC diet, though, and we'll see if it helps. Today has not been as bad as yesterday.

I am back on full dosages of Unisom and Zofran.

Yesterday I was absolutely exhausted. Could have been pregnancy fatigue, or it could have been the fact that I was up for four straight hours in the middle of the night the night before. Regardless, I just kept falling asleep randomly.

Last night was still rough, but mostly due to a cranky co-sleeping baby. Thankfully I was not up again for multiple hours with nausea!

Yesterday I checked on my Zofran prescription (has now been out for almost two weeks). Found out that it had gotten caught up on an easily-correctable snag, and was able to take care of that. However, when DH went to pick it up last night, it had both the wrong amount (21 ct. instead of 90 ct.) and the wrong type (ODT instead of tablets). So today, we are back to square one - all the way back to the beginning, with having to have my OB call in a prescription, get insurance approval, etc. etc. etc. I am thanking the Lord that I have plenty of back-up Zofran at the moment! Good heavens! It will probably be three entire weeks before we can pick it up - if we're lucky.

Yesterday I also lost my remaining patience and called to see when I could get a viability ultrasound. We're apparently right at that point, so I have an appointment for Thursday morning. I'll post as soon as I have results!

Okay, off to work through this day! Still feeling crummy, but hoping it stays mild.

Have a great day, all!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Checking in, Monday a.m. (5w6d)

Well, folks - apparently I'm a lot dumber than I look. (I've suspected that for some time.)

You see, I've been straying off of the diet (slightly) for some time. Yesterday I really strayed. In other words, I ate dessert. Twice.

I don't know if the two are related, but last night I started to feel yuck. Really yuck. And after I finally managed to get to bed, I was back up at 11:45p with nausea, and I spent the next four hours awake, being up and down trying to deal with it. I also had the oddest thing - something like a three-hour long hot flash - combined with the nausea (along with a headache). It was so not fun.

I finally got a bit of broken sleep, and now I'm up again - feeling pretty yucky.

Can I say that I'm back on the diet? Strictly, no questions asked.

And what is up with this night-waking nausea? I've never dealt with this before, and it's not fun, physically or emotionally. 

Would you please pray for me that I would feel better?

Love to all!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Checking in, Sunday mid-day (5w5d)

Happy Sabbath, all!

My report is still good - feeling just fine and holding steady. No other news.

This has been a busy weekend! Yesterday we attended our friend's wedding, and it was absolutely lovely, with a lovely bride. Congrats, dear friend!

We could stay for only part of the reception, but we had a lot of fun and enjoyed the time.

And I'm extremely gratified to report that we did indeed get one whole item on our to-do list done! (We hung a picture.) We far exceeded my expectations, especially since our Saturday morning work time didn't begin until ten minutes after it was supposed to have ended. Not bad.

Today we had another lovely morning at our new/old church, as well as a church potluck. Can I say how much I have missed church potlucks??? They are the stuff of which heaven is made - such a wonderful time of fellowship.

This week should be pretty quiet, especially as it looks like I will be car-less. Ah, well! We'll just hole up in the house, close the curtains and put on Christmas music in order to pretend we're not in the middle of a Phoenix summer. Not too bad.

Have a great Sunday!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Checking in, Saturday a.m. (5w4d)

Happy weekend, all!!

(And happy wedding day to our friends K. and R.! Can't wait!)

Doing just fine over here, no news, nothing new. Continually thanking God for feeling so well!

This week has definitely been better than last week in terms of anxiety. Last week was, well, basically, one long panic attack. And I don't even get panic attacks! (Or thought I didn't.) This week is more on the stable side of waiting, thankfully.

And I used to think I was such a mentally balanced person. Ah, well.

Yesterday was a busy day! I vacuumed the house, then got out the kiddie pool for our eldest - he had a blast. When my husband got home, he reminded me that I really need to empty the pool after each time we use it, simply because our yard has no fence and we would be 100% liable for any child who wandered over and had an accident. Yikes! I hadn't even given it any thought. Unfortunately, that thing is a real nuisance to drain! (It's the floppy kind.) But our had a great time despite the unfortunate logistics.

Then last night we went over to friends' house for dinner - the friends whom we haven't seen in over five years. It was strange! I can't believe we'd let that much time go by. So, so, so much has happened in our lives over that five years - two births, five years of hardcore parenting bootcamp, etc. etc. - just so much life. It felt like returning to a scene from my childhood!

Our friends, however, were just the same, and it was lovely seeing them again. We're hoping to pick up the acquaintance properly and not let it drop again!

Today we have a to-do list about three miles long - and I'm betting that we might even get one item on it accomplished, though no guarantees - and then are heading out to the wedding. I love weddings!! We need more of them! Weddings and new babies are the best things in the world.

Have a wonderful Saturday, everyone!

Friday, June 10, 2011

Checking in, Friday a.m. (5w3d)

Good morning, everyone!

I figured I'd start putting a notation on my entry titles to let everyone know how far we have progressed. This is by date of approximate ovulation, so add another four days to make it by LMP.

Doing just fine over here! No problems, feeling fine. That's about all the news!

Last night I actually went grocery shopping for the first time since finding out we were pregnant. It was.... weird. Definitely weird. Usually at this point I don't go within five miles of a grocery store, but it was just fine.

We have a busy weekend coming up! Tonight we are going to see friends whom we haven't seen in over five years - the last time we saw them, I was about a month away from our eldest's birth - goodness, that's a long time ago! It should be fun.

Tomorrow, we are going to be attending a wedding of a sweet friend - she and the girl who got married two weeks ago are about to become sisters-in-law! Such excitement and such joy. I can't wait.

To finish up, on Sunday we have a potluck at our new/old church. Hurray!!!!!! I love potlucks and fellowship events of all kinds, and I've missed them so much.

Have a wonderful day, all!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Checking in, Thursday, a.m.

I can't believe this week is almost over! Hurray!!!!!

As of right now.... I am fine. Praising God for that! Just occasional nausea and the usual nausea-at-night. Nothing else. Hurray!

(Today I'm a bit tired due to (1) a cranky co-sleeping baby, (2) insomnia, worsened by usual night-time anxiety, and (3) a very vivid dream in which I was catering a friend's wedding but didn't start working on any of it until an hour and forty-five minutes before the wedding (ack!). But other than that - fine!)

We have decided that we are going to ask for a viability ultrasound at about eight weeks. Normally we don't do ultrasound, but we think we might on this one. We'll see when we get there.

Oh, and I should mention that we haven't "officially" announced this pregnancy yet. A lot of people know, either through this blog, or through necessity (needing to explain hastily cancelled plans, etc.), or through DH's slip-ups (resulting in his family knowing; my family doesn't). We normally announce very early (as in "honey, the test is positive, get the family on the phone!") but this time I have just wanted to keep it quiet. DH is going along with that for my sake, though secrets do not come naturally to him - quite the reverse! :) So, although many people know through one route or another, our pregnancy is still "unannounced."

My parents will be visiting next week, so we'll have to break the silence then, and at that point we'll probably make things public knowledge.

Oh, and my Zofran prescription got approved! I had almost given up on it, but I got a phone call from our insurance yesterday telling us that it had been approved. Hurray!

It took an entire week, though - thank goodness I didn't actually need it! Last time it was rather panic-inducing, when I was trying to make phone calls and coordinate offices, all while getting sicker and sicker. It was scary. This time (1) I have leftover Zofran, and (2) I'm not using it right now anyway, so it wasn't a huge deal.

I'm going to fill the prescription anyway, though, even though I'm not using it - because (1) I may need it yet, God forbid, and (2) Zofran is like chocolate-peanut-butter-ice-cream pie - one can't possibly have enough of it! LOL! (Even though it was showing signs of not working for me this time..... which is so scary that I can't even think about it.)

Have a wonderful day, everyone!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Checking in, Wednesday a.m.

Eight o'clock, and all's well! I am doing today's check-in before some late-sleeping kidlets get up, so today's entry is earlier than usual.

I am doing just fine.... No problems. Continually thanking God for this!!

I am still doing the diet, just in case it helps (I don't think it does).... but since I've been too distracted and/or disinclined to do much vegetable prep lately, this means that my diet right now is almost entirely composed of meat, eggs, nut butters, and protein shakes. Balanced, no? But it's working just fine for the moment, so I'm not worried about it. I'm not losing any more weight, but I'm not sure if that's because the pregnant body (when not throwing up!) hangs on to weight more stubbornly, or because of all the whipping cream I've been using with the protein shakes! However, that is the least least least of my worries right now!

One thing I've been doing lately is making sure that I go to bed super-full to avoid those lovely moments of waking up in the middle of the night mildly nauseated from an empty stomach and panicking over the nausea, like I did on Sunday. I can't say I particularly like going to bed feeling like a stuffed turkey, but it's worth the pay-off. Fewer panic attacks, happier self. :)

I must admit that for the past week, life has really been on hold for me - mentally, at least! My mind is just intensely inward-focused, and I have been preoccupied, distant and forgetful with just about everything and everyone else. Routines? Fallen by the wayside. Cleaning? Don't come over right now. Please. You'll regret it. Cooking? Just forget about it. What wants dinner, anyway? Snacks are fine. :) I'm too busy obsessing to worry about things like that, LOL!!!

We are actually slowly working back into things like regular meals and usual activities, but I'm still spending a lot of my time preoccupied with mental anxiety. Days when we go out of the house have been good for me, because they force me to focus on something else. (And normally I'm a very stay-at-home person!)

Yesterday we went to an Open Gym at a local gymnastics training center, and that was really good for me. A whole 2 1/2 hours where I hardly thought about this situation at all! Our son had fun, too. As usual, he spent a majority of the time walking around just looking at things and not wanting to jump in (he is just like a cat around water when it comes to new things), but he finally discovered the trampoline jump into the foam pit, and spent a riotous 45 minutes with that in the end. Too bad it's so expensive - I'd go back all the time if it wasn't! As it was, it's going to have to be a special occasion.

Anyhow, we are doing just fine over here, hanging in there and waiting to see what the future is going to hold. We're in a holding pattern for now! But a pleasant one, and I'm happy for it to stay this way.

Thank you for all of the kind notes of support! Love you guys!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Checking in, Tuesday a.m.

All is still well - a fact for which I am devoutly grateful! Taking this thing one day (one hour, one minute, one second) at a time.

When I say that I'm fine, I don't mean that I'm completely nausea-free - I have off-and-on spells of mild nausea all day long, especially at night (which is always when I've had the worst problems). But nothing problematic, and nothing like it was last week. Again, a fact for which I thank God!

Today we're something like five weeks, if my guess-date for ovulation is correct. With our last I was consistently temping and could give you date and time on ovulation, but this time I have not been temping at all and am just going by cervical fluid and mittelschmerz signs. By LMP I'm more like five and a half weeks.

Will check in again tomorrow!

Monday, June 6, 2011

Checking in, Monday Mid-Day

I figure I'll just check in briefly on a daily basis (when possible) to say hi! Today, so far - feeling great, all seems well. Til tomorrow!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Checking In, Sunday a.m.

Still holding the line. HG has not reared its ugly head again yet, and I am feeling mostly fine. I have occasional surges or periods of mild nausea, but I haven't taken any nausea meds since Saturday morning. Hoping to keep it that way.

This thing has made me realize what a mental mess HG has made of me. This morning I woke up at 3:00 a.m. and thought I detected nausea, with the end result that I ended up getting up and prowling the house for half an hour while having some sort of quiet anxiety attack. I am so emetophobic! Nausea just makes me panic now. It didn't used to be that way, but slight nausea can now send me into a tail-spin of hyperventilating anxiety. I have a sweet friend who ended up in a psych ward when she started her descent into second-time life-threatening HG, and I am so totally with that - it's a surprise to me that things like that aren't more common! Perhaps it's some version of post-traumatic stress syndrome.

In that way, non-first-time HG is indeed worse than the first time. The first time is terrible because one is confused and scared and not knowing what is going on; the subsequent times are terrible because one does know what is going on and what is going to happen. 

Other than that, no news. I'll try to check in periodically. Have a great sabbath, everyone!

(Speaking of which, we did have our first family Sunday at our old church this morning, and it was lovely beyond words. Such happiness! I am thrilled to be back.)

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Breaking Radio Silence

Hello, dear friends - I was going to wait to update until I had some actual news to post, but so many of you have sent kind emails (thank you!!) that I wanted to post a quick update so that no one would be worrying.

As of right now, I am okay. I'm not sure why, but I'm okay. Monday through Wednesday was probably one of the scariest times of my life (more details later), but on Wednesday I somehow started slowly feeling better until now I am almost back at completely normal. There are a couple of possibilities as to why on earth this has happened, and I don't know which is correct yet. I will post when I know more.

For the moment, I am extremely grateful not to be where I was headed, and I am so grateful for your prayers and kind words. Thank you!!!

More when I know more....

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Request for Suggestions

Hey, everyone! Going to see my OB today. Since Unisom/Zofran aren't working well, do you guys have any suggestions of where to go from here, drug-wise? I'd like to have a list to give her. Please leave a comment pronto if you can, as my appointment is in 3 hours. Thanks!!

Please Pray

Dear friends, I am asking for your immediate and fervent prayers, as I am facing a situation that is much bigger than I can handle. Would you pray for me?

In many ways, this week has been wonderful. We were involved in a simply lovely wedding on Saturday, and on Sunday my husband made the wonderful decision that we are going to return to our beloved church. That part of the week was great.

And then Monday came.

Monday was the last day when I could have reasonably expected my period to start. It didn't. And on Monday night, I started to feel nauseated.

I took a test last night (Tuesday).


Yesterday afternoon I had to start Zofran, and just a couple of hours ago I took Zofran and Unisom. And I just started throwing up a few minutes ago.

I am extremely frightened. The Zofran/Unisom doesn't seem to be having the same effect it did (not uncommon), and I am facing something that is out of my hands. I am not sure I've ever been so frightened or so overwhelmed.

Would you pray for me?

- That this thing would be mild.

- That my OB would understand and would prescribe for my needs.

- For my fear. I'm having such a hard time trusting God right now. Pray that I would rest in His care.

Thank you, dear friends.

(Real life friends, do keep this under wraps for a while - thanks.)