Occasionally I run across a blog post that could have been written by me... it's creepy. And it happened tonight! So I am cross-posting - thank you, sister blogger! You have saved me a lot of time!
My terrible secret
Not every detail mirrors my life, of course, but the thoughts, emotions, fears - it's all one big ditto. There sure are a lot of HG mothers out there when you start looking!
I've shared on this blog how torn I've felt about "should we, shouldn't we" in regards to considering any more pregnancies - both practically and theologically. Since my eternal vacillating has gotten me nowhere in terms of coming up with a peaceful decision, I have decided to commit the issue to prayer and wait for peace on this issue. I want to be able to say "We're done and we have peace with that decision" or "We're open to another child and we have peace with that decision" - rather than always having one foot in each camp and thinking something different depending on how I'm feeling, how the kids are behaving, how clean the house is, etc.
Hopefully I/we can come to a place of peace on this! I'm tired of being in limbo. And being who I am, having unmade decisions in my life is infinitely stressful. I was under a ton of stress not having the school decision made for our children (homeschool, public school, etc.) even though that decision didn't technically have to be made for another two years - and now that it is made, I have a lot more peace. I want the same thing regarding our childbearing career! I will write more on that as we go along this journey.
Night, all!
It's probably not apparent in my post, but I really am at peace with our decision to be open to more children. I'll share with you why:
ReplyDeleteMy mother got pregnant 6 times (she has 7 children) on different forms of birth control.
After surgery for endometriosis, sister A was told she couldn't get pregnant. 1 week later she conceived.
Sister L got pregnant at 14 (several years ago), carried the baby until 38 weeks gestation and then he died in utero. No cause found.
I got pregnant just 4 months after my second child was born and miscarried at 8-9 weeks. After that my cycles were so messed up I thought I couldn't get pregnant anymore. When we got pregnant with Anna is was very unexpected and she has been such a blessing!
I want to answer this comment and so am going to take my response back to your blog so that we're not blog hopping! Wait just a sec....
ReplyDeleteWow. I know that this post was written for me...I've been battling nausea for almost 18 weeks not. Horrible, never ending nausea that has resulted in one hospital stay. My doctor wants to give me a pump to try to stop it. I'm so scared about that option, but reading your blog has made me feel better. I'm not alone. I'm not crazy. I'm not the only one out there who is miserable. Thanks you for your Godly perspective.
ReplyDeleteLeah "Mrs. Confident
Leah - Thank you for reading! No, you are definitely not crazy - HG is very real and very difficult to deal with. If you haven't read it already, I recommend getting a copy of "Beyond Morning Sickness: Battling Hyperemesis Gravidarum" and handing it to every person who questions you or gives you a hard time. It's an eye-opener!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I have never had a pump, but I have heard great things about them. For mamas who can't keep down oral Zofran or other meds, the pump can be a big help.
Blessings! You WILL feel better and have your precious baby in your arms soon.