Occasionally I run across a blog post that could have been written by me... it's creepy. And it happened tonight! So I am cross-posting - thank you, sister blogger! You have saved me a lot of time!
My terrible secret
Not every detail mirrors my life, of course, but the thoughts, emotions, fears - it's all one big ditto. There sure are a lot of HG mothers out there when you start looking!
I've shared on this blog how torn I've felt about "should we, shouldn't we" in regards to considering any more pregnancies - both practically and theologically. Since my eternal vacillating has gotten me nowhere in terms of coming up with a peaceful decision, I have decided to commit the issue to prayer and wait for peace on this issue. I want to be able to say "We're done and we have peace with that decision" or "We're open to another child and we have peace with that decision" - rather than always having one foot in each camp and thinking something different depending on how I'm feeling, how the kids are behaving, how clean the house is, etc.
Hopefully I/we can come to a place of peace on this! I'm tired of being in limbo. And being who I am, having unmade decisions in my life is infinitely stressful. I was under a ton of stress not having the school decision made for our children (homeschool, public school, etc.) even though that decision didn't technically have to be made for another two years - and now that it is made, I have a lot more peace. I want the same thing regarding our childbearing career! I will write more on that as we go along this journey.