It's that time of year again - our 2016-2017 school year starts on Monday!
I'm excited. And nervous. And somewhat exhausted even thinking about it. But still excited.
It's going to be a big year.
Besides our usual school schedule, which will be our first full year with daddy working outside the home AND with the baby no longer taking a morning nap AND with adding three (four?) new subjects (Latin, yay!), it's going to be a full year:
- We will be dealing with medical, dental, and behavior issues with our baby with special needs.
- We will be continuing our work with a special diet for our baby with special needs - right now we're on Intro GAPS.
- We will be dealing with dental issues for my husband.
- I am in full-time pregnancy preparation mode, which means lots of supplements and routines.
- We will be completing our transition to a gluten-free household. We've been messing around with this for about five years, but it's time to go hard-core. It makes me beyond frustrated that a wonderful God-given food has been transformed into a substance which is poisonous for a huge proportion of the population, and we have been dealing with this for too many years.
Additionally, if history repeats itself, there's a good chance that the Lord will bless our family with a new little one over the course of the following year. If that is the case, then we'll deal with all of the attendant nausea, etc., at the same time.
From my current vantage point, the thought of a new pregnancy is overwhelming. Right now I am just tired, tired, tired. And so incredibly busy. All day, every day. There is just so much to do, and the work just doesn't stop. Ever. The idea of adding astounding levels of fatigue and nausea to that is somewhat overwhelming.
But I'm also overjoyed at the thought of a new little one, and we will be thrilled if and when our number grows again. (Maybe we could just skip the whole nausea-exhaustion bit this time.)
In the middle of all this, I'm not sure what to do about blogging. I am actually toying with the idea of quitting (for now).
You see, I don't have time to write right now. But an unattended blog is not just an unattended blog. It's a constant source of both temptation (to blog when I should be doing something else) and frustration (of articles written mentally which I do not have time to write physically). It's a constant source of stress.
Additionally, there are a couple of other things about blogging that bother me:
Point #1
Blogging (or any other computer work) seems to be a signal for my children to misbehave. As in, within 30 seconds of my starting to write. Case in point, the 4yo started a crying fit about six paragraphs ago, just after I started to write this post. Right now I'm ignoring him and letting daddy take over, but this is not an isolated incident. Whatever evil lurks in the heart of my children receives a big go-ahead as soon as I sit down at the computer.
Point #2
Blogging is a joy to my heart. But it's not necessarily always a big benefit to my family, and it can cause me to neglect those hobbies which do indeed benefit my family. If I'm making time for blogging but not playing the piano for the family (a substitution which happens often), then I think my priorities are out of place.
Point #3
I am nearing my 1000th post on this blog. But you know what? My best posts are still in the Drafts folder. For some reason, whenever I write a really good post, especially about a subject that moves me deeply, I never feel comfortable publishing it. Is this because I simply shy away from being so openly vulnerable in such a public place? Or is it because I am a coward and can't take the push-back that comes when I publish my opinions on controversial subjects? I believe it's both. (I know it's definitely the latter.)
Point #4
Blogging is a time-eater. It's just so much fun, that time slips away unnoticed. This can be a serious annoyance to my husband, who needs my help and mindful (as opposed to zoned out) companionship.
Another case in point, my husband just walked up and said, "Hey, I thought you were going to stop blogging!"
Another case in point, my husband just walked up and said, "Hey, I thought you were going to stop blogging!"
Well, I am. Sort of. I'm blogging about not blogging.
But my husband knows well the trial of trying to pry me off of the computer when I'm in "Stop everything, I have to blog!" mode.
Anyhow, no answers right now. I still have (lots of) posts in draft form that I need to publish if I can ever get around to it. But as for real blogging... I still have to think and pray about it. Either way, I probably won't be around much!
In the meantime, Happy Easter, Happy Spring, and Happy Back-to-School to you all!
In the meantime, Happy Easter, Happy Spring, and Happy Back-to-School to you all!
Have a wonderful weekend, dear readers!